A Moment of Doubt…

As I was preparing my last minute details to begin this journey, I found myself coming to a realization that my Quest is quickly approaching…  In that moment I could feel a heaviness in my chest and the blood leaving my head. I started to feel as though I was struggling to catch my breath.  Could I really do this?   Will I be successful in finding what I am looking for?  Will I have the courage to explore the unknown?  As I felt my body draining of energy and enthusiasm, I could feel the doubt seep into my veins like a powerful intravenous medication…

I gathered myself and my fearful thoughts and headed out to meet with my friends at Starbuck’s.  Apprehension began to overtake me and I worried that it would be obvious that my motivation was lost…  I walked into the Starbuck’s, ordered my drink, saw my friends and went to sit with them…. They could tell that something was amiss as I was not my usual high-energy self…. I inhaled and prepared myself to reveal my weakness… all my fears, my apprehensions, my anxieties and perhaps even the realization that this Quest may not happen….  I sat down, looked at my cup and there, clear as day, was the answer I so needed to see….

In the seconds that it took to read this timely message, I could feel the stress melt from my body.   Fear, doubt and apprehension faded… I could feel the energy return and my smile emerge from my face.  A powerfully worded cup of coffee, helped me swallow my fears. I told my support team, “I’ve got this!”

 With that renewed energy and centered focus, I am prepared for the journey ahead…. Just a matter of hours and the plane will taxi and the fear of the unknown will stand square in front of me…. And I have made the choice that there is no turning back…like the pilot of my plane, I have a flight plan and I will be flying toward priceless opportunities that lay ahead….